Where do I go from here?

He changed a lot since we got married. He wasn't the person I met. I still remember how happy we were. I just don't know if I am happy the way things are now. I still remember how native I was who doesn't know the difference and move on that time. But, he was the one who inspire me to be a better person and that is why I got to where I am now here. Since a few days before we got married, my mom always nagged him about marriage, moving and finding a new place. Since from then, everything coming falling down to know. I still remember the days he chased me till he fully win my heart. Where does the love go from there? Every since then all he can do is yell at me, when I say something he ignored me or play maplestory and don't care about anything. He used to make me understand how he felt. When now I do the same, he doesn't listen or care about me at all. All he does he is yell or cursed me out. One after another I forgive and my heart get hurt so deeply and somehow I can't feel it. I haven't wanted to eat or sleep or do anything. Just let the days passed by and pretend nothing happen but still it is still there. I tried to be a good wife and a good mother at the same time. Sometimes I tried to manage to study. Everytime he said he tried to help me take care of our son, he always has something to do such as busy with maplestory or later or forgot about it. I told him many times how I felt. I just want him to take care of our son so I can study for the regents since I have 4 months left to finish high school. How come I can't have the energy to do that. I am not fully heal. Everytime I feel like fainting and blacking out. It been like that for like 2 weeks. He just ask me if I was okay and turn his back to maplestory. Does he care if anything happen to me? Before back then, he always worries about me, if anything happen to me, he won't forget himself for it. Now we are married, so much problems happen. Ever since me and him got married, since then, he doesn't care much of my feeling and just leave it to the side and forget about it. He will go to sleep and ignored it. When he feel down I would at least try to help even I can't. Shammy was stupid once again, always believed in love and romance last forever. Like me and him believe there is something called " forever" and " Love". Now to think of it, I don't believe it anymore. My heart got hurt too much to feel the love inside me. Why do I still care when he doesn't? Am I stupid or something? I'm an easy person to understand by the way, just want someone to love, care , and love his family then it is good enough for me. But, now I am on my own. Guess the saying" love conquer all" doesn't exist at all. I am so done caring. I used to love and admire the way he used to be, but now he is a different person I don't even understand and know anymore. Most of the time, I am afraid to talk to him or get near him. I'm so tired. From this day on, Shammy won't be soft hearted no more. I will not risk myself for love no more. I am so tired feeling hurt and getting myself into a mess that doesn't make sense. My heart is so confused and I don't know where to go from here. In this cold weather, sometimes I feel like walking in the cold and cry even it is cold. Sometimes when I walk alone in the street, my tears almost fallen out even I tried to put it back. Where do I go wrong? I tried everything and it is not worth it after all. I am so tired of getting hurt from the person I love that always hurt me. What I can do now is be a good mother and take care of my son and also my education. Other isn't important to me no more. I am so done with everything. I tried over and over many times, it isn't worth to keep trying no more. He won't remember my feeling exist anymore. The old him is gone for sure as I see it, I think I know what to do and go from here. I just won't have mood to study, sleep, eat, and anything. Shammy that everyone love is long gone. I just don't want anything no more. No love, no nothing no more, everything one once always hurt me, I just don't want to be hurt no more. It is no use of telling and repeating it over and over. So done. My son is the only thing I have left that made me stronger everytime and telling me what I need or what I don't need in life.