Crying in this unheard voice in 2:59am est!

Sometimes this world can be very cruel with everything that can falls apart. I can't believe my own sister embarassed me at dinner on Tuesday. I won't believe what came out of her mouth. I know she is not happy with her life, why my sister say something and my other two sisters followed her. Why my life so horrible? In addition, my own husband maplestory addiction freak, henesy hoe. I can't believe it, myself. What if I need him in life, will he keep saying " Do not disturb I am going play my maplestory dont bother me." Will that statement appear in every answers from my questions everytime? I don't want someone like that in my life. I am thinking about my future for my son and me from now on. Flirty with maplestory people, that isnt once since 2 years ago. It been like this. I feel down about this. I cant even talk to him about it, or he will blame me. All I can do is cry like other woman or little girls does. This is not childish. This is waking up, knowing that the love ones in my life never take me seriously. Always think what they say in their mind, and comes out the other way. Do they know they are hurting me? Today, I realize all my sister need me to use my money to buy foods and stuff they need, do they know money is very important and hard to get these days. My sisters doesnt know that. All my husband care about is maplestory at this point. I bet his brain is dead by now. Sometimes I just want a normal sit down talk with him I cant. He is my own husband and I cant talk to him about anything. It is sad. Which brings me to depression at this point. Will I live my life this way on in the future? My family isnt where I need them to be and my husband will maplestory away? He doesnt care about the career I am going for. Everyone looks down on me like I cant do anything better about him. I wish he can stop maplestorying and realize what he is doing to the family or he will learn it the hard way, waking up without one in the morning. I can last being alone. I guess this is call " GROWING UP", that I have to be on my own to survive, no matter how hard or what comes along the way. I cant focus him to do anything anymore. I am being a mother to my son, I hope when I graduate I want to take my son and me to a better place to live in when I have enough money, with him or not. He will not understand, he will only care about his henesy hoe maplestory flirting and training his stupid characters. He think I dont know that. God! I am not born yesterday. I dont know. I guess from this point, I have to earn what I have in life and take it step by step from there, with or without support.

IDk...

This new year is always like the rest. It never changed... I will not forgive him for what he said to me... I guess everything I do to struggle this day forward doesn't mean anything to him... He will always think Im that kind of person!! If im that kind of person I wuldnt be here and I wuldnt have kenny ~ and i wuldnt be working my butt off to get an A in the class... So much to worries about and everyone always gonna say shyt about me in my life.. I just wanna everyone to shut the hell up... Im tired of everyone say im no good this or that or w/e shyt they always say about me... this is why Im always down and think im useless that i culdnt do better... I tried very very hard... im just tired of how everyone think of me... is y i worked so hard to get to today... i guess i shuldnt finish off his present for his bday then...he will never understand how much i love him or how i felt about him... he wont understand that for his age...